Recently, lots of opportunities and changes have been finding their way to me. I've been making new friendships, spending more time with people, learning more about myself, and praying about the future. Yes, I am beginning to come to terms with the reality that God, has called me to something greater. So, for the past two years, I have found myself in a discernment process. School is very important to me but so are the things of God. I've learned that seeking God is not something that can be discovered in a day nor in a lifetime. His character and very nature of who he really is is incomrehensible.
I came back from a retreat yesterday. One of the speakers read a verse in from Zephaniah 3:17:
"The Lord your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love
he will rejoice over you with singing."
This is scandalous. After reading this, I was completely overcome with the reality that I am loved. Loved more than any guy or romance novel or "Walk to Remember" movie. This sense of peace, of assurance swept over me and I was speechless. I sat in that wooden cabin at a loss for words. My journal reads:
"To know that I do not have to do anything, except be. To know that my God will fight for me. That he keeps his promises. That he loves me just for me. Wow."
