Hi Friends,
Thanks for being so faithful in keeping up with these posts. Being a single lady on "Valentine's Day" for several years now, can make one a little sad every now and then. However, it also makes me hopeful for the good and the true and the beautiful in my life that is to come in the future. And honestly, society tells us to "rush" into things all of the time. I've learned that just by patiently waiting, life will unfold in its own time.
With that being said, as a somewhat "patient waitress," so to speak, I've also been told (albeit, many times from many well meaning people), that I need to "get out there." As if I'm Rapunzel, locked away in a castle, away from any guy. Though, I must acknowledge that I love my work and my life as a teacher. I can't imagine doing anything else with my life, and I am hopeful, that someday, I will be able to join alongside a man who won't mind me talking about my work with kids every second of every day (okay, not literally, but you get the idea).
In addition, I am also completely aware that I do need to "get out more." Not that I don't get out and make time for myself outside of work. For the past 1.5 years, I didn't do anything besides going to Graduate school and working. I did not have the right kind of balance in my life (nor any balance for that matter), and did not socialize very much outside of school. It wasn't because I didn't want to, I really truly did - it's just that during that specific time and season of my life, I found myself in a "working place."
Relationships consist of doing more than "going out" or "getting out there" or trying to "find someone." That tactic or strategy is like attempting to search for a needle in a haystack. To me, finding or "locating" a guy, who is the right fit in the puzzle of our lives, will happen when the time is right. I'm grateful for this time that I've had thus far as an independent and single woman; I've learned a great deal about myself that I probably wouldn't have realized or paid attention to had I not been single at this stage of my life.
For the future, I'm looking forward to "sharing" life with a man. I'm eager to learn more about a human being that I'm generally interested in and not just "crushing" on. I'm excited to be challenged to become a better person and also humbled to know that I will have another person who is committed to being my cheerleader and will walk alongside me, in life, every step of the way, even though our journeys will be long, tiresome, exciting, and full of trials and tribulations.
It is my hope that I can find a guy who shares similar passions as I do. I want be as committed to learning about interests that he has portrayed in his life. I hope that a potential guy will see me for who I am, appreciate my honesty, and encourage me to take healthy risks, even when I feel like holding back. I'm looking forward to a man to support me, to hold me, and to correct me when I've been wrong. I'm looking for a man who will still allow me to independent and outspoken, with a sprinkle of "sass." I'm searching the ocean for a gentle man, who is kind and caring, and has a natural way with children. I'm looking for a guy who is good at sports, likes the outdoors, enjoys hikes and nature, animals, and most importantly, the ocean.
I'm looking for a man who is looking for me, who is eager and yet willing to wait for when the time is right. I'm looking for you, my future guy, and I hope, that you're looking for me, too.
