rain

Lately, I have been learning how to risk.
How to risk it all without losing it all.
How to risk just enough without losing out.
How to risk a healthy balance and still receive the thrill of risk taking.
But, as I sit back and wonder if I have really experienced risk at all -
the answer is
no.
not until I have sacrificed my personal needs and desires and wants and aspirations in life
in exchange for the
personal needs and desires and wants and aspirations that God has for my life.
and so, i kneel down at my bedside, hands clasped prayerfully as a good religious child would do
and ask God
to take it all.
my selfishness, my hurts, my anger, my resentment towards other people.
and instead, fill my body with the living water that I thirst for everyday.
for material things will not suffice, plants that will wither when the first rain comes will never stay when a real problem arises.
only his friendship and his love will truly last
forever.
and the ring that he puts on my finger will always be shining in his sunlight
as a gentle reminder of his passionate and unfailing love towards
me.

Copyright -
Alex Puleo
September 7, 2010